So, my worst nightmare came true today. RATS DISSECTION. I have said many times before that I hate the sight of blood coz I get giddy and over-sensitive every time I see or hear anything gruesome. Or gory. But it was time to face everything today... It was a DO or DIE... x.x I couldn't stop hugging my books and stationery in the lab. I refused to put them down anywhere because I suddenly contracted a case of 'bio-lab-ophobia'. Then the teacher went through the procedures orally and then demonstrated the dissection on a rat. I ran out of the lab and teared for a while. Eeeeek!! After demonstrating, she saw me standing outside the lab. She knew I had haemophobia so she told me to get something from the office. I happily went and returned as slow as possible. But when I came back everyone had barely started on their rats. I stood at the door and refused to go in but she insisted I stand at most only 1 meter away from the rats. :( So in I went, wincing at every table. Poo...

Dead tired. For the past week, my average sleeping hours were about 4 or 5 everyday. Hence resulting in my irritability and sleepiness in class, not to mention the migraine headaches I get everyday. So if I've somehow or other offended anyone last week, I apologize sincerely. Can't promise it won't happen again though. Sighs. I have no idea what in the world am I going to do when my class dissects 26 mice this coming Friday. I hate the sight of blood. I hate mice. I hate dead things. I hate touching carcasses. And I hate stinky stuff. I'm so gonna die on Friday.   Me wants a hug... :( Trials are coming up in two weeks' time. I'm scared. It's not like I've never sat for major exams before, it's just that the teachers have not even finished their syllabus yet, and there we are panicking for the exams which is just around the corner. It's not fair. Especially for people like me who don't go for tuition and rely heavily on school teach...

And I've wasted another day of study again. Grr... I have been slacking off for the whole of Term 2. One word sums up everything -- LAZY. I've been highly motivated to do absolutely nothing at any particular given time at all... Even after telling myself I really should grow up and start focusing on my studies right now... But... but... but... My results have always been mediocre, mostly a mix of A's and B's but ending up in the last half placings in class. Mom always tells me how much better I'd do if only I'd put in at least a bit of hardwork into my studies... Nahh. I'm still wasting my time away. No amount of motivating can budge me. I'mma just gonna rot away to pieces this term break... Bluek... ;P

So. Lots of things happened this last week. First things first, my first semester results came out, and I got 1A3B. Not very satisfactory, so I'm gonna retake the B- paper -- BIOLOGY!! Can't believe I freaked out during Bio. Sighs. So now I'm going to sit for it again sometime later this year. Things were bliss for me the rest of the week (except that Bio sting) especially during Wednesday. I'm not going into details there, but I can say it's been one of the happiest days of 2013 for me... yet... ;) Made Easter egg orders that day (120++ of them!!), got home really late that night and got scared of eggs for 24 hours before consuming them again for breakfast, lunch and dinner again the next day. Hahaha. But then the supposed-to-be hard-boiled eggs turned out to be half-boiled eggs where one of them exploded in the face of the recipient... BWAHAHAHA!!!! No, seriously, we didn't mean it to be like that... xD Wednesday was ultra bliss, Thursday no le...

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. And in my case, it has been totally true... I don't deny that I've been so obsessed with it over the CNY holidays, probably just because we weren't able to see each other. I've missed it so much throughout the 9 days of holiday... It was like torture to me... But now that school's reopened for almost 2 weeks now, entering the third week, I think my obsession is cured... Kinda, sorta, well yeah. I don't know. It's actually really hard for me to describe it... How should I put it? It's like, I'm not totally obsessed over it anymore, but I'll occasionally think of it, or sneak a peek or two once in a while... Hahaha... Instead of being overly-worried and coming up with lots and lots of nasty assumptions... No more of that now... I think... xD Well I'll pretty much let you do the guessing and imagining. Because I've run out of words to say. ❤ ❤ But I really, really want someth...

So.... Yesterday was a holiday, and two busloads of us from church went to the White House in KL. Well, in Ampang, actually. It's actually the Bishop's house. It is so HUGEEEE!! That's the view from the first floor balcony (I guess you can call it an indoor balcony?) and as you can see, it's really spacious. And there are a LOT of balconies in this house... See that orangey room with white grid on the bottom left? That's the VIP lounge... o.O See who I bumped into here? The Green Lone Ranger... xD We also went into the rooms. And I LOVE the interior. One's light beige, one blue and one green. They're all about the same, and all of them have humongous mirrors installed in the rooms... ^.^ Camwhore time!! With the little sis... ;D Also took a photo with Bisfe a.k.a. Bishop's wife and a cute little kid!! He's soooo cute!! And his eyelashes are about the longest and curliest that I've ever seen on a baby... ^.^ Mirrors...

Another week of upper six just passed. Been so busy that I could hardly find time to get my lappie out, instead I'm just relying on my smartphone to Facebook 24/7. Thank goodness for smartphones. Phew. Got this bag for school just 2 days before school reopened. Cost me a BOMB. Usually my schoolbag price ranges from RM20 to RM40, but I outdid myself this year. This cost me a hundred bucks. o.O   It had better last me for a lifetime... MATHS!! I guess I'll never be able to get rid of maths. Ever. At least now I still know what's going on. This sem, I'm doing CALCULUS. FYI, calculus was never my fave (well neither were the others, e.g. algebra, statistics etc.) but I actually detested calculus the most during my form 4 and form 5 period... Thought I was rid of the nightmare but then... :( My "I'm-so-fed-up-with-homework" look. Seriously, teachers give homework every single day without fail. I can no longer afford to leave homework till t...

#1 Get my studies back on track I have not, repeat not, been doing any work at all in the last holidays. While others have been working their butts off maths and chemistry, I happen to be busy eating or sleeping. Not a very good trait I know, but my bed's just too irresistible. xD #2 DRIVE!! Will you believe it or not, I own a driver's license. Not learner's permit. For six months already. And as far as my driving skills are concerned, I have only one route in my brain. No, make that two. TO church from home, and FROM church to home. That is about all I did for the past half-year. I need to drive more. I mean, what's the use of having a license if I dare not drive at all? :/ #3 Finish reading my Bible I'm gonna continue and finish what I've started last year. Out of the 66 books in the Bible, I should have at least half of them to go. Add oil!! ^.^ #4 Get myself a scholarship to (maybe) NUS, S'pore Why? Because I like idea 'out...