今天来说说肥婆的故事。 哎呀可是肥婆又不是说很肥很肥那种，只是肚腩大一点、手臂粗一点、体重大一点、BMI 刚刚好超过了正常的一点点。 可是她从小就被别人叫肥婆了。 小时候很爱吃肉不爱吃菜，结果给人留下的印象就是， 你肥因为你只吃肉不吃菜 。 其实她上中学时已经很少吃肉了，菜也喜欢吃多一点了，只是他们看不出。 因为她也很喜欢吃饭。从小每餐都吃三两碗饭。 结果给人家讲， 你肥因为你是饭桶 。 其实她上中学时已经吃很少饭了，妹妹吃的远远比她吃的饭还要多一两倍，可是他们又看不出。 因为她不喜欢运动。结果给人家讲， 你肥因为你不运动 。 其实她小学时是赛跑选手，跨栏选手，中学时也是抛铅球选手，也很喜欢跳舞。只是小六的时候扭伤了右脚，中二的时候扭伤左脚，从那天以后不能再有激烈运动了。 可是他们又看不到。 小肥婆一直以来都相信别人说她肥因为不吃菜、吃太多饭、不运动。 长大以后才知道为什么自己虽然改变了生活习惯还是减不到肥，那就是基因的问题。 她的父母虽然不胖，但一方的家族有肥胖的基因，就是那种很容易一个不小心就长胖了一两公斤的情况。 可是他们不相信，因为他们说妹妹很瘦呀，你在说什么肥胖基因？ 其实妹妹很幸运没有肥胖基因而有另一方的基因，就是吃来吃去都吃不肥的那种。再加上妹妹还在发育期，我怎么说也不能赢。 算了，其实肥婆虽然很介意别人一直在叫她肥婆，可是讲出来又会被说小气，反正肥胖应该是自己的错吧，谁叫自己小的时候没有好好照顾健康？所以就咬着牙根和别人一起拿自己来开玩笑，好像完全接受了自己是胖子的事实。别人却不知道，每一次听到自己被叫肥婆的时候是多么的想躲在房间一个人哭。 别人说啊，你人很漂亮啊，为什么不减减肥看？一定会有很多追求者的。 你这意思就是说，肥人就是没人追吗？ 总之当埋怨为何没有拍拖的时候，就是因为她很肥。 她很想相信男生是没有那么肤浅的吧，可是为什么就是要让她难堪，而证明她所相信的其实就是废话？ 就连每次与朋友们出街买衣服的时候，时常因为买不到自己的尺码而伤心，就再被朋友插一刀，说她减肥的话就可以穿小码了。 然后她又要当作没事发生，把衣服放回架上去，跟朋友们继续开玩笑。 你们以为减肥很容...

I write usually when I'm feeling emotional, but I guess that moment's come to pass. I've not been feeling myself lately. Everything felt like havoc and I was stuck right in the middle of the tornado with no means of escape. Too many things happening to me at once, physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. I was tired, and I'm still far from recovery. Throughout these few months, ever since the new semester started, I'd only just come to the realization that not all humans are good people. In fact, good people don't really exist, because everyone has a dark side to them, it all only depends on whether or not they decide to show it to you. Including me, but I was too naiive to still believe that such people do exist. They turn out to be only a figment of my imagination. Under every movement, every decision, every sentence... there's always this underlying motive behind them. Or a hidden knife. Or gun. I'd bee...

Haven't blogged in a while. It's been a really busy two and a half months with my last concert on the 3rd of October. We'd been preparing for it since July, and none of us got to go home ever since. Well, on the bright side, the concert was a huge success and it's become one of the most cherished memories of my entire uni life thus far. I can't even start describing this exhilarating feeling I get every time I stand on that stage, prettily dolled up and dressed, but it was amazing. Out of the eighteen songs presented, I was there for ten of them, either on the grand piano, keyboard, drums or congas. At times I wonder, when would be the time when I graduated from being a pianist to being a drummer? I just realized that I prefer drumming over playing the keyboard. Also, it would be nice if only I could start figuring out how to play the guitar on my own. I've been learning for ages but my fingers just would not cooperate. The concert was held on a Saturd...

My grades for the first semester will be announced on Feb 4th they say, and although I'm supposed to feel kinda nervous about it... somehow I don't. Not really as much as I think I should. Like my mom says, more often than not she's more worried about my exams and results than I am... Not exactly 100% true but I guess there's a small part of truth in there... Hehe ^^ Basically I'm not in uni for the exams and results. I want to say that I couldn't care less, but of course I'd get kicked out if I flunked entirely. No, my point here is that I got into uni and I plan to have fun. Lots of fun that isn't bound by my grades or anything. Perhaps try to live a little. Play a little. Shop a little. And just experience the small taste of freedom and independence before life throws me into cruel bitter reality. Honestly going to uni has been the best choice of my life. I probably could have got into it sooner had I not gone for Form 6, but then I wouldn't hav...

 刚才和一班女朋友们一起吃午餐。 谈下谈下，谈到了昨天替好朋友庆祝生日的狼狈场面。 昨天，很尴尬，很狼狈，很凄凉。 她很可怜，尤其是切蛋糕仪式时，根本没有人理睬她。 我们不是不要睬她，只是知心朋友坐得远，近近的反而不当一回事儿。 我们知道，她并不是每个人最喜欢的一个人，毕竟大家都是有缺点的人类。 可是他们也不会做人啊，人家生日就给她面子吧，为啥要一脸很不爽的样子为她 ”庆祝“ 呢？ 朋友啊，对不起，我们让你失望了。 然后啊，谈下谈下，又说到了自己上大学之前，身边朋友是怎么为自己惊喜庆祝生日的。 三个、四个谈得如火如荼，说什么通常惊喜派地都蛮尴尬，因为总是不懂如何去面对。 又说，什么朋友最棒，因为曾经为了自己的生日而付出了这么多这么多，做了这个那个，这些朋友不必多，一个两个就已经很够了。 而我呢，坐着那边静静不出声，面对着一大盘意大利面，猛把食物塞入嘴巴。 听就好啦，我心想。 她们还很兴高采烈把自己的故事一五一十讲到清清楚楚，人家怎么替自己庆祝生日。 说什么其实不必买蛋糕庆祝，买张卡片也开心啊。 不必收礼物，只要有心就好啦。 我心想，其实啊，你们是不是在说空头话。 因为人家常常送礼物给你们、替你们庆祝生日，应该是庆祝到有点闲了吧？ 但是人家又给你惊喜的时候，心里还是会很爽的。 想想下，我根本就记不回去曾经有哪一年是人家替我庆祝过任何生日的。 惊喜的也好、明显的也好，好像一次都不曾咧。 可是也不能怪我朋友啊。 谁叫我在大家忙着考试的时候才生日呢。 每一年都是一样的，无论小学、中学。 最多是中一的时候，全班为我唱生日歌，然后我每人派两粒糖果，就这样草草了事，因为接下来就要考试了。 所以啊，刚才她们一直重复说着自己有多幸运的时候，真有点羡慕哦。 家里庆祝，都是妈妈煮我最爱吃的菜来庆祝的。 好感恩。 因为我生日点妈妈的菜，平时都没得吃，全因为都是妹妹最不喜欢吃的。 所以一年才吃一次。 蛋糕我也不要求，派地也不要，应该是习惯了自己一个人，也许是一家人，孤孤单单过生日。 从来没有朋友为我开过派地呀。 可是朋友的派地就多了，也许是我有点儿内向、或者自小从不受欢迎，出席也没怎么把我当一回事儿啊。 每年收到的礼物，一只手也数得完。 ...

I've only just realized that my last post was nearly a year ago. So it's entering my fourth week in uni already, and honestly I've never missed home more than anything before. But I guess the one thing I miss the very very most is the washing machine. And the piano. I've been hand washing my clothes for so long already and it's giving me biceps just squeezing all the water out after soaking them in soapy water. Although the clothes are generally not too dirty (they just get sweaty and smelly real fast here) it's still a lot of work and I honestly wish the machines in my block weren't malfunctioning all the time. Plus, even if the machines work fine, I still doubt the hygiene of it all because you just simply don't know who's been using it or what dirty laundry has been in it... I just wanna bring my entire washing machine here XD Assignments are starting to pile up too. I don't know how some seniors do it, because I find myself very busy mos...

Alright!! Finally I'm willing to sit down and write something. I guess this is already looooong due... So I'm gonna cover a few of the stuff that happened last month. I'm really really behind in my updates... But then, what else is new? * * * So... First of all, Wen Yen's birthday outing!! Our little group of girlfriends (the WY's, Ee Wei and I) had a birthday dinner at Secret Garden. Ee Wei drove. Well, bless her darling soul, Wen Yen said that this dinner was on her. Actually I didn't really dare to order the really extravagant dishes (the prices are kinda outta my range) seeing that the first page of the menu was for a RM 490++ Wagyu beef... Kinda scary... o.O I had lasagna. Pretty decent salmon and spinach lasagna. My only complaint is that the dish was way too large and I couldn't really finish it all by myself. It was delish, but too big. Otherwise I might give it a rating of 4 stars out of 5... :) Enough talk, it's photo time!! ;) ...

Old selfie. <3 I wonder if anybody missed me? That's more than one whole month without blogging already... and I feel so bad because I keep abandoning this poor, poor blog. Oh, and I finally figured out a way to join two of my emails together in Blogger. Which means I can sign in and blog using either one now. Hahaha. This is so awesome!! xD So what exactly have I been up to lately? Nothing much, basically just catching up with schoolwork and doing occasional sketches here and there... :) I kind of like the heart shape in the speech bubble design. Maybe I should make it into a T-shirt design or something... :D I finally got to watch Despicable Me 2 today!! Gosh, after waiting for so long. We've been talking about it since Thursday already and every time kena FFK. So very happy to finally watch it today... And my friend said that I laughed the hardest in the whole cinema... =.= Unfortunately, I didn't get to buy the Minions from McD th...